Thursday, June 11

I've Moved

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Wednesday, June 10

Years Before

Well its finally here. The summer of '09 is here. We are officially out of school for the year.

I thought I would be thrilled. But right now I'm just kinda bummed. Things just didn't end like years before. Normally you spend all day like debating wether or not you should do something, then kick your self for not doing it. I didn't do that this year. I know, I know, pick your jaw up from the floor. I felt no need to do anything really. I just want to get up north and escape this town for a little while. I want to get back to myself. I've just been seeing myself slip more and more away. I just need to get up there and put all this Freshman Year drama out of my mind until our high school reunion in 20 years, by then all this shit will seem like breaking a nail. Up North hopefully I will find my reset button. I also need time just to unwind. I've just been so worried that something else is going to be thrown at me to deal with. I already had to deal with my dad going to the nut house. It doesn't help that we can no longer make plans that are a month away do to the fact that things happen in our family that can make you feel like a turtle stuck on its back in a plastic tube with a 7 year old looking down on you.

On a happyish note, Adam's letting me shave his head on Friday. It's really considered tomorrow but I don't care. I feel bad though because I didn't/haven't invited Joe. And he's really been there for me lately but I really want Evona to be able to come. It's so hard to pick between people!

Hopefully my grandma's new neighbor boys are cute. I hope there not fat ugly hobo type guys. That would be a total let down, Nessa and I will like die if we get up there and they're belly button itchers. I hope driver's Ed goes good up there. I've so nerves about it. I really want to meet new people, it's like worrying about going to a new school. Well kind of is like going to a new school. I'll have to ask Sara about the people there. I don't know if I should mention that shes my cousin what if she has a horrible reputation there and I have like shunned or worse teased beyond end.

I need to be a nerd when I get up there and go to the library there's a new authur I want to check out. She looks pretty good so I want to get back to reading I think thats another reason that I'm so different lately I stopped reading.

Oh well I don't feel like writing anymore, I'm playing 20 questions with Michael, shhh don't tell my ideas mascara he'll never get it. :)

~Natalie