Personalized

So this update is just like my personal life lol, idk what topic to write about so what better then my life :)

Ok so I am like really hyper right now. I have no idea why. I'm starting to get over my cold. That may be why. Or that its been two days and no one has been pissed at more or me being pissed at someone! lol that may be why. I can not wait for the game on saturday! I have no idea why. I think its because secretly I love riding the bus. idk why but I do. Its fun most of the time. I'm ganna take my camera and want to get pics with my bffs even tho well probably have our uniform on. CUZ WERE BAND GEEKS o yea loud and proud lol. What the truth? I hate the uniform and would be goin  to the game anyway. Cuz lately I love football and like to go to the games and be and Evona have been going to alot of them together. I'm also SUPER excited about DC. Its ganna be AWESOME. I'm just worried about who will be in our room! I'm even more excited about it because Trevor's going. And lately I've been liking him more. Idk why maybe cuz I got so freaked out when he was ignoring me and I was worried that he would stay mad and never talk to me again. But I think I just took what I do and thats what he would do but he didn't now I know I will NEVER do that to someone again. Because if every one takes it the way I do, then I fell horrible about ignoring them. I don't think I like "the rat" much I haven't talked to him in forever. Erin says he scares her. I have no idea how he does but w/e. Lmao my mom is taking two people (if one can go) that he barley know to the game which is 3 hours away plus my brother. So shes going to have fun lol. I have to find a dollar to take to school for our feista in spanish on friday. I was arguing with Austin today in spanish and we were like he keep banging on the table so I clicked my pen on his arm but then Trevor started moving our (me and Austins) table back. LMAO Austin told on him and Trevor got told in spanish to leave his legs under his table lol. Trevor must have been peeved because Austin can do anything in that class and I can even yell it at the teacher what he's doing and she wont even be fazed. 

Well Thats All For Now! 

Luv y'all

Nat

So true

Being And Getting Mad At People

“Hate is too great a burden to bear. It injures the hater more than it injures the hated.”

“If you hate a person, you hate something in him that is part of yourself. What isn't part of ourselves doesn't disturb us”

“A woman either loves or hates; she knows no medium.”

(not from me from http://thinkexist.com/)

Okay, I am talking from experience when I say that if you are mad, ignoring, or hating, someone that you think about them ALOT. Whenever you see then your look away. You think about how your going to react if they try to apologize or talk to you, or in some cases provoke you. Some people who has never actually had anger toward someone would probably say that they would think hating/ignoring some one was easy as pie and you just don't think of them ever again. But they are wrong. 

When I get mad at someone I debate on how mad I am. I see if I should just blow it off. Which is easier said then done but it is possible. You just kinda of just lightly being the subject up not showing that your mad and it most the time goes away. Some of the time the problem can't just be blown off. It something that really made and impact on you. But it's not so big that it can't be worked out by talking to the person about the subject and figuring out ways to fix it. Last there's that thing or thing's that cause you to not even think twice about talking to them the next day. You can't stand the thought of them being there. And yet that all you can think about.

You think oh god there ganna be there next hour GRR! You debate on how long your going to be mad. At least a few time a day you look at them and think do they care that I'm not talking to them? 

I was resolutely on the other end of that anger. I was the one being ignored. I seriously now am feeling bad for all the time that I have ignored someone. Just thinking about the future, cuz I know that I will be mad again, I will now try and work things out and not ignore people. I will accept apologies and forgive and forget the best I can. 

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Personal UPDATE!

Football Game on the 7th. WE WON!!! 27-14 I went with one of my bff's and our moms and little brothers. WE HAD A BLAST. At the game we sat on the bleachers in the handicap spots and wrapped up in blankets. At half-time being the band geeks we are we snuck to the other side with our brothers and watched the band. They only had 24 people and didn't play and rock music, which compared to our guitar hero show we played this season is weird. Then we waited in a long line for hot chocolate with out spazes finally got the front and found out they didn't have any. I think it was the girls fault and didn't know that hot coco and hot chocolate were the same thing. Later we got some at Mickey D's and my necklace pendent fell down my shirt and I had like three on so I had to like dance to get it out while some random guy was reading our shirts and was like wheres that at? (or team and town was on your shirts) Then later we went though town honking the fight song and drove around the school parking lot doing it to lol. It was awesome!

My Spaz Football Player

Luv y'all

Nat

Trusting Guys

I have pretty much lost my trust in guys. I have always been iffy about trusting people. And a few guys have flown there loyalty flags and it seems to be that none of them are flying my colors. My secrets are being told. The one thats really hitting home is coming from a guy that has worked half the summer to gain my trust back when he lost it in the end of June. I really thought I could trust him again but now I know I can't and that I can no longer tell him things. At the moment I'm not being very friendly. Although another guy that broke my trust I expected and in a way I wanted him to tell. I only told him certain things that I wanted the person that he was telling to know. 

An yet I haven't given up on trusting guys. I have a bff  that only know one or two 'important' things ands hes keep to himself. Which hows that I have a flag from him. Also one that knows tons but he has no idea what's important. I just know that hes keep others secerts and thats the type of guy he is. So another flag there. 

I know that if I said guys are just as bad at keeping secrets as girls it would be right. So I'm pretty much learning that just about any will tell a secret if there's enough temptation. Life is a new lesson everyday you life it and guys are WAY for harder to figure out then girls.